Okay, I finished my homework, so now I can talk about crap.

I can't believe I lost three friends in one night, that's definitely a personal record.

I guess maybe I lost all three at once because I needed to let go of them earlier but I was too weak to do it. I'm a passive, forgiving person and I give people lots of chances and benefits of doubts.

It's just come to the point where I'm just fucking tired of it. I'm just not going to keep taking your crap, over and over again. I'm a human being, I have feelings too, and they just kept hurting them without really caring.

The sad thing is two of them didn't even care. One of my friends tried to fix things but things were just so far past the fixable stage. Our friendship was pretty much ruined in November when she was my girlfriend and cheated on me, but we tried to keep it going anyway because I wanted our friendship to be more important than our relationship that failed, but it just bothered me so much... and over time I just exploded.

The other two don't really care about anyone but themselves. One just cares about herself and her boyfriend and her who she has a crush on and what's going on with her. The other I'm not that terribly close with but you don't need to be that close to someone to be considerate of others.

What happened basically is that they ditched me. When I talk to people about this, they're like, "oh yeah i've been ditched plenty of times," okay well good for you. Do you want to just sit there and take it? And continuously be treated like crap? I mean I've been taking people's crap for sixteen years now and I say enough is enough already.
I am so SICK of being the nice guy.

I am so sick of girls and their dramatic garbage. I'm tired of them complaining about boys being shallow when I try to do something nice for them or tell them I have a crush on them they just SMACK me down and then go after some shallow guy who treats them with 1/4 of the respect that I would have treated them with.
They do the exact same thing that guys do, if not are worse, so shut up already.

I wish girls would just give me a chance, but it seems like whoever I have a crush on, one way or another doesn't like me back for various reasons besides they just don't feel the same way about me.
Uuuugh, women are so complicated, it's fucking ridiculous.

Anyway, my point is, I'm not going to sit around and take people's shit anymore. Yeah most people would try to mend these friendships that I've lost but it's not like I haven't tried. I'm not going to just continuously try when at least two of the other people don't make the effort or really seem to care at all. So fuck that.

I want to say that I'm not going to give a shit about girls, but unfortunately that would be a white lie. I guess all I can really do is deal with it. Damn hormones.

I guess that's part of High school.


By the way, this song that I'm listening to Best Friends by The Perishers reminds me of you, Jessa. I don't know why. It's a good song though... You just have to get used to it.
I think it reminds me of you because I put it on replay and was listening to it over and over when we were talking on Saturday and I was looking at your pictures and crap, so now I think of you when I hear it.

Anyway, fifteen minutes until class and I'm still in my PJs and I should ... SHIT I HAVE TO GO TO THE NURSE TO GET MY MEDS.
BYE.